So these are our days as of late:
Ree and I wake up and Billy has already gone off to work (sad face about that). He always says goodbye with kisses and whispers but sometimes I am so tired that I can't remember that this even happened.
Next (for the past week) the little guy has been cutting his eye teeth, feverish, sensitive and now with a awful ear infection... Need less to say he has been miserable!
My little heart just shatters for all of the discomfort my sweet baby is going through... I just feel so awful and powerless about not being able to fix it for him.
Because of his sensitivity and aches, he is constantly in my arms, on my lap or whimpering at my feet. This has put a huge damper on the my domestic agenda--that I already struggle to maintain. That is just to say, that once again the house has been hit a clothing, dishes and dust bunny bomb!
I repeat: The house has been hit!
Due to Ree's current condition, he has been nursing the entire night through, which means I have been getting NO SLEEP! As a result I am a bit of a grumpkin pumpkin during the day.
When Billy does get home I am so super spent plus I have deadlines to meet... So I escape to my studio!
A).Because, I need to just be me alone without giving any more of myself to any one, and B). I am cramming to complete my up coming shows.
I get home sometimes in the wee hour of the following day (2,3 in the morning).
Sometimes I get home and Billy wakes up to spend the slightest bit of time with me and I am so delirious and exhausted I find something, anything to fight him about...
So basically the only time I get to see my beautiful husband is at 3 in the morning for cranky delusional midnight whisper fights! It is horrible! When we... somehow find our way out of what ever ridiculous argument we (I) have created and agree to call it a night... Our feet DO always seem to find each other as we drift off to sleep for a length of time that would more realistically be considered a nap.
And then... We wake to do it all over again!
But not tomorrow. Tomorrow we have a date!
Dinner and Bruce Sprinsteen! I can't wait!
I MISS YOU BILLY!
I LOVE YOU BILLY!